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May 08

Backstabbers

I've been asking a couple of my friends on what to they think of backstabbers and are you able to learn anything from em?

All of em said backstabber suck, are selfish and irritating . And most of them said the only thing backstabbers thought them was not to trust even your best buddy, they're couple of em give a surprisingly different answers though. It's very sad don't ya think?

Personally, I'm on backstabber's side. wondering whether I'm one? well, you know me, you tell me. I agree that backstabbers do bitch about all of us but have u ever think it on the positive side? sometimes friends do offend friends without realizing it. Its probably some minor issue that offended your friends therefore they didn't wanna tell you off. They didn't tell u off aren't mean that they are please with it. When they did comments on ya attitude towards something I bet most of us will start yelling back and defend yourself. That's perfectly right, you have to do that. However they are your friends spare a second of thought for them, think after u yelled and defended yourself, think whether what they said about you was true. The hurting comments they left you thinking, most of it, it's likely to be facts. But in any case the comment friends gave on you , the impact it is limited. Friends wouldn't want to blast at you at such impact that you'll end up start cursing his entire family and eventually break the friendship with him.

Here come the part where backstabber is the good guy. They won't bitch about things that are anything to do with fiction, they won't, why? They wouldn't want to get exposed that they make up an imaginary situation of someone and end up receive a beating, do they? Therefore backstabber brags about the pure facts/truths which of course in a sarcastic manner.

All I'm saying is that backstabber aren't that bad of a person, they can let you know yourself better, on the contrary they might left you with a depression after overheard what they said, sometimes. Well, so by any chance you overheard people talking about you on ya back, go home and do some changes in ya life.

Let me define 'change' change yourself to be a better 'yourself'. Don't change until people doesn't recognized you. Let me state a few examples. For example you're kind, change to be kinder. If you're self-centered, change to be LESS selfish, DO NOT purely abandon ya negative self, keep some of it . The main thing here is to change to be a better 'yourself' not change to a holy person. Keep that in mind and people don't get you than so be it. you did change, people don't appreciate it there's nothing you can do. Even you changed to a 'holy person' there will still be someone wanna oppose you. You can't simply force them to accept you. Just like Satan and Jesus!


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May 04

Is it him or is it everybody?

howdy,

what will you do when u saw a person in a wheelchair need help? an ugly disgusting with body odour fella.

there was a time where dean and his friend were having lunch together at roadcafe. they were sitting outside eating and chatting along. this time dean saw a girl, teenage girl around 14 in age sitting on a dull, heavy chair with 2 big wheels attach to it. the girl was having trouble moving, up a slope. dean felt sorry for her and miserable himself.

he could help and he wanted to yet he didnt. he was afraid that his friend would tease him if he did help the girl. he kept silent, stare at her and pray that someone, anyone pull out courage to help the poor girl. soon dean's prayers were answered.a girl about same age as her, i think, walk pass her. for a sec i thought she was just gonna walk away from the poor girl, however she didnt. she turned back and gave the girl a hand. slowly they disappeared before dean. he smiled and continued the conversation he had with his friends.

he went home after that, bored and he started to write an entry on his blog. he wrote "why am i so timid?not like i hadnt help her before, just that i did it when my friends are not with me."...

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April 30

She's starting to live her life!

howdy guys,

she's starting to live her life, since she know the people around neighborhood better . she had been going out with em , loitering around the estates with em and surprisingly most of em do go jogging in the morning. I'm glad for her

she had been suffering and sacrificing everything for me when she first saw me and I'm pretty sure during that time i was crying. crisis struck on her 30s and her late 40s.i was worried that i could lose her.i would be devastated if she's gone. the previous entry 'Evil in me' still applies though. why will i be devastated? you must be wondering don't you? if my previous entry applies. well, I'm still a kid, young, lazy, typical kid.she has been doing all the things for me , what things? im not gonna share,why?its freaking embarrass i wouldn't want to degrade her like that or rather myself. i would be in chaos if she's out of this world, permanently strike out of my life. i am so selfish!

i hasn't been working nor doing really well for my studies. haven't done anything she could be proud of. sigh ... anyway i wish and hope her life will be getting better to great and quit worrying about me any more any longer.

LIVE YOUR YOUR LIFE! MY GIRL!

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April 28

Evil in me

this entry will may make no sense to most of you.lol
so.. try figure out.

ok sometimes i really wish i have nothing to do with my ....why? cause i wanna do things , my sort of thing and not be questioned by anyone.they care for me i know ,however i hated it just simple hate it.well or rather i feel that that is a burden for me.the better they is to me i feel my burden is heavier.maybe because I'm the only... in the...and wanna to get rid of that responsibility i hold.whats really horrifying is that sometimes i wish they were....sigh. maybe I'm so bored with my current life and start thinking of this kind of crazy stuff.

oh,i really dont know.everytime im thinking that,if not,i'll be thinking about my future.i have great dreams, great wishes but one freaking attitude of my doesnt allow me to do it, laziness. I'm willing to bet with my life that even my closest friend don't even know how lazy i am,well if i have any.

I'm so lost ... so lost.

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April 24

Such mesmerizing eyes

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OK I'll give a slight intro on her . shes the main actor in "Ghost Whisperer" . why she's chosen to be the main actress?besides being a extraordinary actress? is because of her mesmerizing eyes!!aha! i make that up...

well, her eyes are indeed attractive don't you agree with me?when i first saw the commercial of ghost whisperer , i cant wait for the same commercial to show again, just to watch her. well, I'm not psychotic or anything just that i enjoy seeing what i like thus more of it ^^

the show started a year back and why am i writing about it now?cause the season 2 is coming soon !! cool eh?i remembered that i quarrelled with my friends just so that i could get back home in time to watch the show. this may be funny to some of you . well anyway i hope this wont happen again xD

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